I click open my browser, open my blog, and stare at the blank page, waiting for the words to pour out. Sometimes, they do, but then I leave without pressing publish. Other times, it remains blank. I have so much I want to say, but sometimes I’m scared to say it. I have so much I want to share, but part of me wants to keep it all to myself.
I always try and be open on my blog. I only ever want to be myself. It’s hard to put yourself in that position at times though. I open up about my mental health a lot, because I hate the negative stigma that surrounds it, and it’s part of me. Talking about my life is how I find more of a connection with ‘readers’, it makes me human. Blogging is a pretty vain business when you think about, and sometimes I just find it hard to talk about things. I think too much, I worry too much.
I’m in a bit of a blogging funk again it seems. I’m feeling super inspired, but I’m also procrastinating a hell of a lot. My brain just likes to flit off into space and spend hours dancing around to dreams, ideas, fantasies.
My nephew has been over for the holidays, and i’ve been enjoying spending time with him. I’ve also been using the recent inspiration to get my craft on, it’s been so long since I’ve felt the desire to make things. I miss that. I find it makes me miss working at the craft store I used to manage. I miss creating. It’s nice to do that again.
While my nephew and I have fun together, we make each other laugh so much, I also love that he’s one of very few people who let me photograph him. For a very long time I actually wanted to be a photographer, but I’m way too shy. I’ve even been a runner up in a photography competition and had my work displayed in a shopping center. I always doubt myself though.
He’s getting pretty handy behind the lense too and took some photos for me. I wanted a new updated pictures to use across social media, and I’m happy with how they turned out (except for my bra showing, whoops!).
Words cannot express how in love with these Capnmueller earrings. I’d been lusting after a pair for what seems like forever, and when these ones went on sale, I couldn’t resist. I have a very hard time resisting things I want on sale, if you hadn’t noticed.
Top is from ASOS, and warning, size down! This is my normal size and it’s pretty huge, I can’t find a way to style it that I like. It is very pretty though.
And now a question for you…