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Goodbye Tonka

May 15, 2017 Everyday Personal

This is so hard to write. So so so hard. Last night, on Mothers Day, I made the hard decision to have my little man put to sleep. It was heartbreaking, and to say I’m absolutely gutted is an understatement.

12/08/2010 – 14/05/2017

If you follow the blog on facebook or Instagram, you’ll know that Tonka has been unwell. Just over a month ago, we took him for some tests as he was losing weight and vomiting more than normal. We were thinking maybe thyroid issues or diabetes. What it confirmed was unexpected. Kidney disease.

He spent a few days at the vets, on fluids, started on a new diet and medication. The fluids helped a bit, but after a long talk with our vet, the hard truth was that she suspected that if he lasted 6 months, he’d be lucky. He was still acting like his normal self and we decided we’d just make the rest of his life super happy.

The rate at which he deteriorated was drastic. We only found out a month ago and with how he was, we were optimistic that we’d get those 6 months. Even until his last day he was eating SO much. Sadly, over this last month, he’d lost so much weight. I’d never been so knowledgeable about a cat skeleton then I was just from patting him.

The decline was daily and on Friday, I ended up booking him in for next Saturday to see his Vet. I was thinking it may be his time then but was going to see what Claire thought. On Saturday, I rang and changed that appointment to Claires next available, which was Tuesday. Sunday came, Mothers Day, and by 8pm, I wasn’t sure he’d make it to the vets opening in 12 hours. So I made the decision to take him to the AEC.

I had slept with him in my arms, as he so often did, and spent a bit of the day in bed with him. He’d been super clingy. So much so that when I went and had a bath, he sat on me the whole time. He had a whole lot of his favourite food, tinned tuna, some ham, and what I call ‘kitty crack sticks‘. He’d stopped eating and drinking by the afternoon, and was all twitchy, finding it hard to walk. You could see in his eyes he was done, he was just tired, drained and uncomfortable.

I feel so blessed to have had Tonka in my life. I had expected it to be for a lot, lot longer, but the time we shared was special. He was an amazing cat and he charmed so many people. Even people who didn’t like cats warmed up to Tonky. He was loud and opinionated, but loving and clinging. He was well travelled, having flown more than some humans. Sydney to Melbourne, Melbourne to Sydney and then Sydney to Melbourne again.

You can read the blog and watch the vlog about the day I adopted him here.

I love you Tonka, so much and I will miss you more than I can express. I know you are at peace now and will be snuggling away with Mr Frodo.


  • Nessbow
    May 15, 2017 at 5:58 pm

    Oh my darling friend. I can’t find the words to tell you how sorry I am. I had been so hopeful that you’d get a bit more time with your precious man. He was such a sweetheart and so loving. He was the perfect companion to Frodo and a source of comfort to you when you lost him. He is so lucky to have such a loving, sweet friend as you to share his life with. Sending you all my love and hugs.

  • Louise P
    May 16, 2017 at 8:34 am

    Oh, Natalie. I’m so so sorry. I can’t imagine how devastated you must be feeling right now, but I’m here if you ever want to talk. Tonka was such a beautiful cat, and looked full of personality. He was so lucky to have found you, and have had a life full of love, comfort, and security with you until the end. I doubt any cat could ask for a more loving owner than you. Sending you massive hugs, and thinking of you. xx

  • Brandy
    May 17, 2017 at 3:51 pm

    I’ve been following you on social media and I know exactly what you’ve been going through. I’ve gone through this twice with 2 of my fur babies. It really hits you, because you’re losing a member of your family. Nobody will understand until they have one of their own. They’re your babies, your pride and joy, and it kills you when something happens to them. Tonka, RIP Buddy. He’s up there with Frodo, Puffy, and Rascal. <3

  • Kathryn OHalloran
    May 18, 2017 at 3:28 am

    Oh no 🙁 Condolences.

  • Camilla
    May 19, 2017 at 7:35 pm

    I’m so sorry about that..Iknow how hard is to take taht kind of decision and the devastation you feel right now!
    Stay strong!




  • www.xloveleahx.co.uk
    May 23, 2017 at 7:08 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss. First Mr Frodo and now Tonka. He was such a handsome boy. My heart goes out to you. <3 xxx

  • Natalie Mulford
    May 26, 2017 at 12:00 pm

    Thank you <3

  • Natalie Mulford
    May 26, 2017 at 12:01 pm

    Thank you.

  • Natalie Mulford
    May 26, 2017 at 12:01 pm

    Thank you so much

  • Natalie Mulford
    May 26, 2017 at 12:02 pm

    It’s so hard, and it really is like I’ve lost a part of myself. I don’t plan to have kids, so my animals are as close to children to me as i’ll ever get and it’s so heartbreaking.

  • Natalie Mulford
    May 26, 2017 at 12:02 pm

    I really am heartbroken. I’ve had my good and bad days, but my mental health isn’t the greatest at the moment. Thank you xox

  • Natalie Mulford
    May 26, 2017 at 12:03 pm

    Thank you, I’d been hopeful too, but it was pretty much a month. He deteriorated so fast. He was amazing and i’m so thankful for the time I had with him.