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Anxiety.
Anxiety and I are old friends, but until recently, we only really met up when I’d have blood tests. Seem’s as of late she’s been weaseling her way back into my life and I seem to have forgotten (or blocked out) just how debilitating it can be. The flight or fight reflex kicks in, and in those moments, you honestly believe that this has to be the worst feeling in the world. My heart beats fast. I shake. I get a cold sweat. I feel so nauseous. I’ve been managing to push through most of them, but I suffered the largest one i’ve had in years a fortnight ago. Right now, it seems like…
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Musings on Life.
No doubt with everything that’s happened to me the past few months has me feeling like i’m living in a different universe. Sugars recent blog just got me thinking even more. So many people have a set plan for life. They are going to go to school, get a specific job, find a partner, get married, buy a house, have kids. For me, my ultimate goal is to find happiness. A general middle ground of feeling safe, loved and content. I think with my mental health, I just focus on the main goal. I sometimes find it hard to open up, to talk about things & also how much to share on…
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Of life, death & blogging. (May be triggering)
I often struggle with how much to share on my blog. Everyone has their own idea on what should & shouldn’t be shared. It’s a fine line that I worry about crossing. But why? Isn’t this MY blog? I started this blog for me & it’s grown into what it is today, and I love it. I know I have a mind that over analises things. But I’m an honest person, so why can’t I be honest on my blog when I want to? I guess the main reason is, that I’m scared. The blogging world, while lovely, can be harsh. Owls of Happiness, my friend Lou gave me. They…
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Of relationships & trying to move on…
Adam & I have broken up. I’ve struggled to write this, but I guess this blog will be a little crazy over the next month. I just wanted to talk about why. I’m going to be moving back to Sydney. I miss Sydney. Sydney is HOME. My family are there. I’ve always been close to my family & the fact I haven’t seen my youngest nieces & nephews in a year breaks my heart. My brother will send me pictures of them & I feel like i’m being ripped apart. Adam loves Adelaide. Adelaide is his home, his family are here. He won’t move back to Sydney. It was the…
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You don’t need to be thin to be…
There is a whole lot of negative assumptions when it comes to being fat, and quite honestly, i’m sick of it. Sure, a few things may be true, but every single person in the world is different, just because 2 people may be the same weight does not make them automatically have the same problems. It’s not just with fat people either, I have friends that are thin, who don’t gain wait & have some horrid accusations thrown at them. I sometimes wish that people would wise up & realise that no 2 people are a like & at the end of the day, we all have feelings! You don’t need to be…